It's a Gift

Isaiah 6:10

"Make the heart of this people fat, and make their ears heavy, and shut their eyes; lest they see with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and understand with their heart, and convert, and be healed."

Many people may hear the word of God, but they do not come any where close to feeling the power behind his words. If people's hearts are hardened and they are no longer able to hear, speak, see, or feel the power of the word, then they will go searching for it. This would be a useful technique to get followers of God back on track. Since they went without the word for so long, the next time that they hear it, they will feel the power and and become "healed" of their wickedness.

I went to a church in Kim before while I was on my habit of church hopping every Sunday with friends of mine. The preacher, or Danny in this case, read from the bible in a section that I cannot recall at this moment but, he spoke of how the good book was brought back on to the earth and how many people gathered together just to hear it be read aloud. Thousands of people came and stood for three days just to hear what was in the book. Not one person complained and they were happy. The stood with humble hearts and they took in every word allowing it to strengthen their soul.

Today, church services can last from 2-4 hours on the Sabbath day. The entire time, there is one person who does not want to be there. There are families who stay for the first hour to hear the service and partake of sacrament and then they leave and call it a good Sabbath. I am guilty of those last few sentences.... Where has worship, love, understanding, service, and faith gone? The world would be hectic if the Bible was taken from the earth again, and here we are taking every single second of it for advantage. We have the instructions for life at the palm of our hands and yet, we never read them... When I heard of the people who waited and stood days on end just to hear the word I realized that the world today needs that same exact sense of direction. To be able to restore the gospel in the minds and hearts of everyone, including myself, would be a miracle in itself.

Less is More...

I opened the book, closed my eyes, and pointed to the most amazing verse I believe I have ever read!

Hebrews 13:2

"Be not forgetful to entertain strangers: for thereby some have entertained angels unawares."

No, they are not actual angels that have been sent down to sit in your classroom or work place. They are the regular normal person who is striving to succeed the test of life just like you. The only thing different about them is that they could be one of The Chosen Ones who get to live eternally in God's kingdom as a God themselves. This scripture is plainly trying to state the fact that the act of kindness towards those who you do not know is spreading God's love even to those who knew nothing of him. Your one simple act of kindness can turn another person's life directly around. That is one of the goals in this life... To let brotherly love continue on and on.

About three years ago I stopped going to the church that I was raised up in. Don't get me wrong, the religion was GREAT but, it just wasn't for me. I felt like there was something more out there just waiting for me to reveal. The first few months without going to church I felt really lost. At that time I had a really good friend of mine who was very excited to introduce and teach me the basics of his religion. I went to his church and I found it very interesting to see how different the two religions were and yet they were still very similar.

After attending his church, I still felt lost but, he was not about to give up on me. The next day I got five pages, written on the front and back, from him that were filled with scriptures and interpretations of those scriptures. I couldn't believe that he would take the time to write TEN pages of scriptures for me! I was thankful for what he did for me and his act of kindness took me to places that I never would have dreamed of! He was, at that time in my life, an angle!

This is Completely Worn Out So New?

My thoughts on college and actions towards college have been completely cut into every single little piece possible and there is no way I can continue writing about it! With that much being said, I am leaving that dreadful topic behind me and starting with something new to write about that won't ever run out of something for me to comment on. That topic will be scripture study and interpretation of a single verse out of the bible. I chose this topic because it will help me catch up with the three years of procrastination I have used when it comes to reading the scriptures!

Please understand that my interpretations and understandings may be completely off the wall and nothing that anyone has ever came up with. I am a free spirit and I am not tied down to a single religion or church so, I am very open minded and sometimes stubborn. I absolutely love church hopping and learning about all the different religion's that are out there. All I ask is that who ever is reading this, don't take my opinions or comments personally. I am not a professional when it comes to interpreting the good word. After all, I'm only human... Not perfect!

So I'm going to randomly open the book, close my eyes, and point to a random verse and that is where my blog begins...

1 Timothy 1:11

"Let the woman learn in silence with all subjection."

The woman's role within the church and family life is very different from the man's role. The man has the power and the woman works under his authority. It is a man's duty to pray and teach the word and it is the woman's duty to listen, absorb, learn, and ask no question's along they way. She must not take on the role of a men but, rather sit in silence.

This simple verse obviously says a lot. I know modern day women try to argue the fact that men hold the most power and that they are the dominant authority figure. Women believe that they can be just as good and sometimes even better than men........ My argument is one simple verse..... Hebrews 13:8. "Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever." Need I say more?

An Untold False Alarm

I just got in the shower when my brother came knocking on the door saying that someone was on the phone for me. I asked who it was and he said some college. My mind immediately skipped to Bel Rea because I sent them some information about me because I thought it was exactly what I was looking for. Well, not any more! I told him that I couldn't take the phone because I was in the shower and that he needed to take a message. Hopefully, him being the smart person he is, he would take a good message.

I got out of the shower to find that he didn't remember anything that was said over the phone... What?! How could he forget? It had only been about five minutes since he got off the phone! So, here I am as of now, wondering which college tried to contact me and for what reason. I will never know unless I get another call. Was the shower really worth it? No, it wasn't! I am hoping that the opportunity will eventually happen again and the next time I won't be in the shower!

Spring Break is almost here! I get to go to Texas and check out a few campuses so, we will see if my choice of college is actually where I feel comfortable and want to be! Everything is moving very SLOWLY for me right now so, I don't have much to elaborate on. We'll see how the visit goes!

The Time Is...... Not Now

This morning I went to school in a good mood trying to be positive through any obstacles thrown my way. I sat down in my US History chair and gladly began my warm-up, waiting to get up and stand for the pledge of allegiance. The boy on the intercom messed up the pledge so, I had a good laugh and my positive attitude was still in tact. The teacher opened up the "Stock Market" and I sold $470 worth of shares happily taking my money with me back to my seat. I was on a roll! The Smart Board turned into a PowerPoint covering The Great Depression, and I sat there listening to what the teacher had to say. One simple sentence struck me and stuck on me for the rest of the day. I instantly thought to myself, " I can write about this in my blog...". The teacher said, "One reason the Great Depression came to pass was because of a recession. It's kind of like the one we are in right now so, those of you who are trying to get into college... bad time to try."

Have you ever listened to someone talking to you and they happen to say a single word or sentence that completely stumps you and you can no longer make sense of what they are saying to you? It's as if, they all the sudden started speaking tongues and their words are coming out in slow motion with a deep pitch. In all reality, you are just in a deep thought and nothing else matters except your thoughts. Well, that was me when I heard her say it was a bad time to try to get into college. I was completely stumped and not able to protest about anything because I knew it was the cold hard truth. The recession is part of my life so, I don't know why I have been trying to act like it won't affect me in any way, shape, or form.

So, basically, all I got out of today was a HUGE slap in the face with the world shouting, "WELCOME TO REALITY BABY!" I believe I am awake for the recession now! Watch, tomorrow the Stock Market is going to crash and I am going to owe a ton of money! It will be just my luck! To have the positiveness sucked right out of me!

I Could Be This...

The easy way out of situation's is how I would love to live life! A good challenge here and there like a huge essay is okay.... stressful, but okay. Why? Well, I learn something new and I am able to express myself through that report. That is not so bad right? The bad only shows if the teacher doesn't like the way I interpreted that report. Then I am extra stressed. Everyone has a different opinion about different events right? How is anyone graded fairly when it comes to interpreting a difficult reading? I mean the teacher themselves have a different opinion! How do they grade fairly? I don't understand how the whole system works. It is unfair but, life in general is unfair.

Now, I feel lucky to be living where I am right now because I am able to know the teacher's personally. I couldn't imagine going to a high school where the teacher can't even remember my name. They would definitely strike marks on my paper because they can't see the potential behind the words. How does that effect the students who are actually attending those schools? I can't even imagine.... Although, where there is huge schools, there is wealth. Where there is wealth, there is opportunity. Where there is opportunity, there is success.

I have the choice to either stay in La Junta for my Senior year and graduate here, or I can go to a high school that is double all of our schools put together in Texas, and finish up there. What would be a wise decision? If I stay, doesn't that give all the better chance of continuing to get good grades, get involved with the community, and get good scholarships? How would moving my Senior effect me and my future? I honestly have no idea what would happen. It's either all or nothing. Do I take that risk of failure? The unknown is so scary!

Then and Now

If there was a time period that made it easier to get into college I would zap back in time right this second! Was it easier for our parents to get into a college back in the day than for us to today? They make college sound so easy and all that they want for you is to get a good scholarship so that they don't have to pay so much! Or maybe my parents just think I am the smartest cookie on the block and I will get through anything, meaning I will get into college without a problem.

My parents are my motivation to keep my grades up and keep on researching and searching for a good college. Without them consistently nagging at me, I have no idea where I would be. Did they have to go through the same exact nagging from their parents? They are just passing down the "exciting" tradition I suppose. Looking at how successful they are shows that it got them somewhere though so, it does some good!

My mom went to college with four kids under her belt! How did she do it? I don't know, but she uses that her excuse to say that I can do anything. She says, "You're my daughter and if I could to do it, so can you." She has a point but, sometimes I feel like I am not recognized as my own individual. Maybe I can't do it sometimes! After all, she is very Sanguine and me... I'm Melancholy!